A Road Less Travelled

This post may come to a surprise to many.. but it explains the lack of posts since last August. I debated on posting the news for sometime, but I really want to move forward and this is a way for a new beginning let's say.

I will just ask for forgiveness later, if Chris happens to stroll across this post. As I don't really know if Chris has shared the news with many, as he's very private when it comes to family.

Chris and I have parted ways and moved forward onto new chapters in our personal lives. There's been a lot of tears, sadness, anger, frustration, pain, suffering, and miscommunication between us for a short time now. Along with the happiness and joys of being parents to Iszak in between. It's hard to think that 7 years ago, we were such love birds that were unstoppable.We wanted to conquer the world together and share our dreams with one another, raise a family together... Something has distanced us, which has slowly emptied our buckets and literally we have starved one another from the greatest things that marriage treasures.

I have taken these experiences and challenges to turn them into lessons learned.. some may have been the long way to learn and possibly frustrated others. We all learn at our pace, make decisions and take advice from others to shape us.

This is a big curve ball in our family, but we need to do what's best and healthy for Iszak. He's our main focus together as parents and always will be that way. We will still attend parent teacher conferences, sports games, school activities and other random activities that Iszak will discover in life.

I realize that the hardships have begun, but I truly have a positive outlook for the future. There is still much to come down the road of life and therefore, I will grasp and move onto a different bliss. I have a lot of support from my family and close friends, so for that I am thankful for you!

Iszak, Your parents will always love and care about you.. even if we're not together. We will work hard to deliver for you!!

In result to this decision, my blog will go private for real this time in July. I have quite a few email addy's that I put together from a few posts ago, but just in case.. drop your email address on a comment, if you'd like to be invited to continue reading. Thanks everyone! More news and updates to come soon.

God Bless!

Three Days and Counting

Only 3 more days left!

We're getting excited to see the family and also nervous as Iszak is having separation anxiety issues of his parents... more so his mommy. I have an idea that I will have to be with him 24/7  as he just screams looking for his parents.  Good thing that Iszak is pretty great out in public and loves people.

I hope it's not as bad as I make it.

Other things happening in our world.. other than Alaska. We're planning Iszak's 1st Birthday party at the Zoo on June 6th. As my mom has this crazy idea to take him there and has been talking about it since he was a month old. 

Iszak's Happenings

I thought that I would make this real quick, while I'm working on my other posts that are pending some pictures that need to be uploaded from the great camera. Hooray, I'm figuring out more and more with every posting.       Enjoy! 

It's 2009

Lately, I haven't been very motivated to post anything new.

Christmas was great for us and had quite a few surprises along the way, which one was getting a phone call from my little brother from the mission field in North Carolina on Christmas Eve. We were all at my grandma's house for dinner with my Uncle and his family, my older brother and his girlfriend and my two younger sisters. When the phone rang.. it was my brother, Sean calling to wish us an early Merry Christmas! We all took an opportunity for a few minutes to talk to him, which was awesome! I tried to keep my conversation short, since it was a church member's phone bill racking up. It was a Christmas present to Sean from the family that he's living with until the next transfer comes around. Granted, we also had the chance to talk to Sean again on Christmas morning! I'm glad to know that my brother is doing well and sharing his strong testimony with people. He's always been a big and lovable little brother, and yes I mean big.. he's a lot taller than me and built like a house. I only was able to tease him many many years ago, because now he can slug back a lot harder. He's getting ready to come home, there's been a lot of changes in the family since he left in 2007. In 8 months and 13 days, he'll be back home to Salt Lake. For sure, a nephew to come home to play and get acquainted with for the first time. We love you Sean!

Iszak had a hay day on Christmas with figuring out that wrapping paper can come off pretty easily and makes a wonderful noise in the process. Overall, Iszak was the most fascinating person to watch this holiday.

New Year's wasn't what I was hoping for, since I came down with Strep throat and was miserable. At least I was with my favorite people that day, even though I rung the new year with two sleepy heads. It always seems to happen that way with movies that I manage to stay awake through, but Chris nods off. His excuse is that those are bad movies, yet I seem to watch them to the end. By all means, it's only happened with two movies: Reign of Fire & The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor. I can't complain too much.

Then this week, has been a challenge for me personally. January 6th is an anniversary date of my late husband's passing. It going on 7 years now, you'd think I would be over it.. somewhere emotionally, it's still rough and certain memories just flood those gates. I hope as time goes on that it will diminish. It was such a short lived time and for the most part, not the most positive either.

Now, my life is living large and I have the joy of sharing it with Chris and my little Iszak! I'm so proud of Chris for what he's doing for our family. He sacrifices so many things to make sure we're taken care of every single day. Every week, Chris is busy going on appointments to help other people's lives change forever with creating hope and opportunity financially.

Thank you Christopher for being my knight in shining armor and being the best Daddy to Iszak!!

Onto my last thought for this round of blogging.

Iszak has turned 7 months on January 7th, 2009.. wow, he's growing up so fast. He's so creative and has an amazing determination with things. For instance, Iszak is just about got crawling figured out. He basically can get moving in all 360 degrees with his legs and scooting. Now it's just getting those little hands cooperating in the same direction and he'll be all over the house.

At his 6 month and 3 week check and definitely well beyond the 6 month mark. We've got to thank the rescheduling from the doctor's office end for that one, hence another reason why we're shopping for a new pediatrician. Any suggestions, let me know.

Iszak weighed in at 17.1 lbs and 27 inches tall, which is average for his age. It was exciting because Chris was able to attend Iszak's doctor appointment this time. Chris was a little saddened that his hopes of having a really tall star basketball player may not be in Iszak's future. I think it's perfectly too early to jump to conclusions at such a young age.

We still look forward to every new daily adventure with Iszak. Along with the many desires to pull on every ceiling fan's chain in the house to turn the light on as we walk by. Thanks Daddy for teaching me that new trick!

Pictures of these last few weeks will come soon, as the camera is in my car at the moment.

Another Year Older

Today, September 18th.. what a mile marker for me. I've been a mommy for 14 weeks, a wife for 5 years and 3 weeks, and a daughter for 27 years. Wow, time doesn't miss a beat! I wouldn't pass up any of these moments at all.

This morning Christopher & Iszak surprised me with a card that had tear jerker messages inside. A message that can't be spoken from Iszak's own mouth yet, but it ment the world to me. It was a message of thanks for all of the hugs and kisses mommy! Gosh, motherhood is so wonderful and rewarding!
Christopher had an uplifting and positive message with support in everything I do for our family and the things I continue to do. He's such an amazing man, who stepped into my life at such a life changing time for me. A time when I wasn't open to being loved and comforted after suffering the loss of my first husband, only 6 months prior. To this day, I'm thankful for the many lessons that he's taught me and will continue to be there.

Iszak is an angel sent from God to teach patience, love and happiness to us. Everyday I'm reminded of those great things.

Christopher & I sat down with a client tonight, granted on my birthday, to update their financial dreams and goals. I didn't even think twice about it taking time away from my special day.. why, because I was there with my hubby and son giving hope to another family. What an amazing business I have!! No other person would take time on their birthday or anniversary to change another family's life and their kids future. Afterwards, we went out for Thai food, then stopped at my mom's house for a slice of ice cream cake from Baskin Robins. Overall, I had a great time!

I must say, text messaging has definitely changed the way birthday greetings are passed along. I received numerous messages on my phone today; from my sisters, a friend from work, friends from the office and a dear friend that's been styling my hair for 10+ years. Thank you for making my day special!

In closing of my thoughts for the night.. I'm looking forward to my next birthday in 365 days.